first hug

when i was watching tv yesterday, i see this girl who shared her story to the public television about what she really feels about her family on how they treat them before.. This girl, as what she said, is a really outgoing... likes to hang out with her friends till late night and not that good in school in her younger years... Her family treated her with...ill say this.. "disrespect" (as what i saw as she tells her story), telling words that are not pleasing to hear by the ear of a youngster... In the end, her mom told her how much they loved they daughter that's why they react that way to her before... The tears from the lady fell down, and according to her, that was her first time to hear the words "i love you" from her mother... After that they hug each other tightly, feeling that was also the first hug the lady got from her mother.

after seeing that scene... i remembered one event of my life that is kinda related on it... It was my graduation day when one part of program is to approach your parents and send them our thankz and much love for the things they've done for me to reach that state of being a graduating student... To tell you guyz, im not that kind of guy that gives complement and express what i really feel about my parents and family... I nver hugged them and tell them words like "i love you ma", "i love you pa", "i love you mj", "thank you" and other stuffs like that... now going back.. as i approach my mom, tears suddenly fall and as she see me crying towards her, she gave me a massive hug... i cant stop myself crying at that time, feeling the arms of my mother hugging me tight, send her my thankz for all the things she've done for me... can't forget that moment that i got my first hug from my mom since my childhood days....

as im doing these entry, i cnt stop my tears fall frm my eyes, as i remember these moment happened in my life... a hug that is so meaningful for me as a son... a hug that made me realize that there's 3 people in the world that will not leave me as the people around me turned their backs on me... a hug that made me feel that someone there believes on what i can do, despite of all the things that ive done to made them feel that i'm a sore loser... and lastly, a hug that gave me a reason to go on and strive hard in life.


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