kismet

My friend raised a question just this afternoon in a text message... He asked me how in the world that we've met each other in the group... It just popped up in my mind this thought... What element make the 10 members of the famillia bond together as a real family?... We have all different characters in life but still we're intact despite of these differences each member possesses... I remembered one line said by Sloan to Wesley in the movie "Wanted"... "Nobody wanted it... Fate Does..." . Maybe it was destiny who made this set up to gather up individuals with different attitudes and personalities in one group. It's everyone in famillia's fate to be in this group... Oh well that's what i've seen as i live each day of my life with them in my back... I point out here...

=+= starfish06 =+=

you mean everything to me

Moment of Truth - FM Static

Here we are, in the best years of our lives.
With no way of knowing,
When the wheel stop spinning cause we don't
Know where we're going
And here we are, on the best day of our lives.
And it's a go, lets make it last, so cheers you
All to that, 'cause this moment's never comin' back

I used to know her brother, but I never
Knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her eyes on me.
Now I'm jumpin' up and down,
She's the only one around, and she means
Every little thing to me.

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I've got
Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
Long since we've been talkin' and in a few
More days, we'll both hook up, forever and ever

And here I am, on the west coast of
America and I've been tryin' to think for weeks of
All the ways to ask you, And now
I've brought you to the place, Where I've
Poured my heart out, a million times, for a million
Reasons, To offer it to you
I used to know her brother, but I never
Knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her
Eyes on me. Now I'm jumpin' up and down,
She's the only one around, and she means
Every little thing to me

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I've got
Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
Long since we've been talkin' and in a few
More days, we'll both hook up, forever and ever

I used to know her brother, but I never
Knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her
Eyes on me. Now I'm jumpin' up and down,
She's the only one around, and she means
Every little thing to me

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I've got
Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
Long since we've been talkin' and in a few
More days, we'll both hook up, forever and ever

ballpen and ID

it was a very busy day for me... even though its is tiring and perspiring because of warm climate here in my hometown, it is still a very good day for me... I've learned a lot of things this day... Thankz to my grandpa who enrolled me in a driving lessons that will start this coming thursday.. I'm so excited for this because i really want to learn how to drive already.. unlike before that i don't have interest in cars... now im slightly building my interest in it... oh yeah... so what we did this day, after i went to my highschool alma mater, after that fly that jumped on to my glass of naicha (bad3p!), me and my granpa went to BIR to process my TIN (Taxpayer Identification Number.. im not sure if this is correct... lol), that is one of the requirements in applying for a student permit, that is needed before i can start my driving lessons... During the processing of this, many things stuck in my head, as my grandpa told me stuffs that will help me grow... First, he told me that i must have my ID with me... "ALWAYS"... as in in closed quotes... Now that i'm growing old, i must have a valid identification so when situations came that authorities needed an identification, i can show them one... Another thing... always bring a pen... pen is not just a tool for writing, it can also used for self-defense (as what i'm doing when i went home late...) Grampz also told me not to just buy a cheap pen, but an expensive one... His explanation to that is that when you have a cheap pen, you'll not take good care of it and always say that you can replace that one. Hving expensive pens will let you keep that pen because of its value, and the quality it can give you while writing... Just popped up in my mind while im writing this... It can be a way which you can see the real state of living of a person thru the pen he/she is using...


I just realized this day... I'm already 19 years old but on what happened in BIR office makes me think that i must place myself in the next level of my existence... Maybe in a year or two, im already in the environment where i deal with big people, old ones, and colleagues as we enter the world where technology is in its fast pace.... Lyk my grandpa said while we're on the supermarket.. "Now is the right time to start to learn things, sooner or later, you'll have your own life and own family"... At one point i realized that my grandpa's right... I must start to learn things that i need in the future... No more games at that point... Live life to the fullest and have a life that is worth living for....


=+= starfish =+=

starfish

its been a long time since my last post here in my blogsite... i've been busy this past few weeks so i can't allot time to make an entry here... oh well after a long time of shortened sleeps because of projects and exams, the second semester of my third year as an IT student is over.. a semester full of memories to keep... not only in academic but also in my social life... Want 2 know what this semester has done for me? well here it goes... In this semester, i learned many things about what being an IT is all about... Being an IT professional doesn't always mean that u're a computer geek... a programming monster, or digital artz designer and other stuff... IT professional must possess 2 things... computer mastery and a lot of gutz and socialization factors... if one of them is missing in the scene, you will not survive the IT profession and end your career for just one click... There are more things in my academic life this semester that are absorbed by my brain, but maybe i'll share them one by one in my future blogs.... so that's my academic thoughts for this semester...

Social life... My social life at the start of the semester was boring.. I always sit down alone in the corridors in silang with my headspeakers in full blast, listening to music in my mp3 player... I lived my life that way every single day that passes by... Until one day, i met this group that at first i thought that will not be connected in my life... But look... i have this guys at my back in times of pain, sadness, laughters and enjoyment.. They're considered as my second family in my life, not just here in Baguio. They're the kind of person that even though we're in financial crisis, will still go out and enjoy the hell out of that night together... That's one that i love about them... Not knowing that behind the group, i'll meet someone that i wish to be my other half, the one that will walk with me to my journey of life. Her unique personality struck me the most and her attitude that i'll say that is not perfect, but is above average... After that day that we're together sharing the spirit of valentines day, i felt that little by little, i am falling in love with her... and as the time passes by, i keep on falling in love with her... and i love that feeling... the feeling of loving her... And now as i write this entry, i think of her... the one that i love... the one that i wish 2 be a part of my lifester's list of important persons in my life.... the one that i wish to be the "right one"...

oh well guys the semester's over... it will be a long long vacation to spend with our families and friends in our places.. I'm going to miss the experiences i had this semester.. the new learnings i have, the new faces i've seen, and the environment that i lived for one semester.. To my fellow batchmates, don't give up guyz, we can do this, even it is full of pains and sufferings during projects and exams, hope we guys go out of our alma mater together as IT graduates and use what we've learned in school as we move on to show the world what we've got... To my famillia... I'm going to miss you guyz... it will be a long time that we will not see each other... Hope there will be a part 2 of what we have guyz yesterday(weeeeeeeee riverview ulet)... Yngatz guyz.... And to you... U know who you are... You take care of yourself always huh... I really going to miss you... Enjoy the vacation with your family and friends huh.. starfish loves you.... that's true : smiles :... Oh well i point out here... i need to prepare myself for our defense... see yah guyz... :out:

=chubbystarpayne-ish=

afraid to lose you

they say, when ur in love with someone, you can do all stupid things that you can do. But it comes to my mind that it is true, but the question is, will these acts will make the one you love happy? i guess not. Stupid acts may lead on losing someone you love. The only remedy is change. But when will you change? if he/she's gone?

I do stupid stuffs because it is my only way to release all the negative vibrations life is giving me in my everyday living. But because of it, maybe i'm going to lose the one who let me smile in the times that i'm down.. When i'm under the influence of my freaking emotions, she's the only one who can make me smile. I'm always saying these words to her "Ang gling mu talaga magpangiti ng tao, napapangiti mu aq". But yet, i'm still doing these acts to relieve myself from pain. I realized this night that my image is not that suitable for her. I mean, my acts will not let her happy and enjoy my company. Darn, i wasn't able to make her smile, as i told my self before. I told myself that i'll make her happy and comfortable with me when we're together. I need to fix things up with my identity, hoping that this one will help to bring up my identity that will be loved by all, not like now that i'm hated by most people. My friend told me that i must control my emotions and not let it overcome me. That made me realize that my friend's ryt. Dapat wag aq magpapatalo sa emosyon... Kze it will not do good but instead may damage my relationship with my friends and to the one that i love. I know readers will not believe on what i'm going to say. I'll do my best to fix things up and move the way up with a new identity, an identity that will be loved by the people around me.

For you.. I know you're mad at me.. I'm having an idea about the reason.. I can't promise but i will do my best to change myself to save what we have started... I'm afraid to lose you.. I dnt want you to go away from me because of my attitude and stupid acts.. Uunti untiin q... Mhrap mbilis eh... Bka icpn mu nagpapaimpress lng aq sau... Oh well its been a night then... good night guyz...

=Payne=

first time