..outside the four corners.

"life is like a call center training... first you need to undergo training for you to learn all the things that you can use when you reach the production floor, then afterwards you'll go on nesting to apply all things that you've learn during classroom training... like in life.. you'll learn a lot of things from your family inside the four corners of our house and time will come, you need to step outside the house for you to apply all the things we've learned from a long journey of training inside our house."

This should be a status that should be posted on my wall, but the characters exceeded so i decided to just place it on a note so you can hear my thoughts about life... These past few days, I'm in a deep trouble of shit because of a lot of not-so-good and not-so-bad things that happened this week. I came up to the realization that the time is now for me to step out from our house and live independently. Not sounding as an individual that already knows everything, but this is a statement coming from an individual who wants to go out from the box and step in to the real world, and learn from experiencing things about life. Experience is the best teacher, like other people were saying, which is right. While on the real world, learn from the experiences that we'll encounter, whether good or bad experiences, and from that point you'll learn something that you can carry on as we move on in this journey of our existence that is called "life". Learnings that will let us drive the wheel of our lives in the right path going to success. Experiences that may hurt us but will push us to be strong and never back down from challenges of life. Smokes and bottles of beer that we used to lean on if we're so down, yeah there's a negative impact on that, but lighting cigars and drinkin' bottles of beer and liquor, we can learn something that sooner or later we will realize that we dont need these stuffs in order to live... in vernacular "dadating din ang time na pagsasawaan mong gwin ang mga bagay na to". Its normal to be exposed in the real world with bruises and scars because it will show everyone how far have you been walking in to this world..

Hope they can read this... Its not to disrespect them but for them to hear my side that im keeping since i graduated from college. This is not to disregard all the sufferings and things that they did for me to reach the state that i have. I love them for giving me proper discipline and love for me as a responsible living individual, but there are some things in life that i need to learn outside the house and for me to apply the things that they taught me every single day to the real world. I know they're scared for me because of what life can let me experience that may hurt me and have some bruises and wounds.. But from these wounds that life may bring, i can learn from it and bring it wherever i want to go and for me to be trained as an independent individual also to help my parents in a way that im not dependent on them.

Way to go Jhemz...a long long way to go...

-invictuz05-

Acceptance,Support, Brotherhood

There's an event in our school this morning which was attended by the graduating batch of our college (and i'm one of them). The university conducted a recollection for us graduating students in our school's theater. It was a requirement for graduation that's why we are encouraged to go there. I thought this activity will be just an ordinary activity for me but the moment i stepped inside the theater and took a seat and participate in the activity, there's something different that will happen to me. Something that will be memorable in my life when me and the rest of the graduating batch step on the next chapter of our lives and see the real world behind classrooms and school gates. One activity done in this event is to write down three people that made a big influence in my life. At first try, i wrote my chosen 3 people... but i changed it at the back of the paper that was given to me. We are also instructed to put a word besides the name of that person that best describes them. After it was done, the facilitator asked some volunteers to share their choice and why they've chosen them in front of the crowd. I want to share what i've wrote but my eyes pulled me back to my seat and told myself that this was not the right place for that. Maybe the right place to share my thoughts about that will be thru this entry. That's the reason why i opened again my blogger account after a long long time. Maybe thru this entry i can touch lives and those lives will say that all things that are written here came from the heart.

The first one in my list is my mother, and the best word that describes her that i wrote is "Acceptance". I placed it there because my mom is the person who best influenced me in my life. She accepted me for who's the real me. She accepted how a man named Jhemz lives, letting me live life according to my way. She accepted my weaknesses and at the same time she appreciated all my strengths. She always supports me on whatever decision i made in my living because she believes that it will be the best for me and it will make me happy in my living. She also defends me from my father when my dad questions me on the way i dress, the way i fix my hair, and the way i live. She's always at my side when i need a comfort of a mother in times of depression and sadness. That's why I'm so proud of her as my mother for me and for my little sister, and as a wife for my dad.. because of her patience and love for us.

The second one on my list is my loving girlfriend, and the best word that describes her that i wrote is "Supportive". Compared to my past relationship, being with her made an impact in my life even though we are just starting in our long journey as partners. She's the one who's always there for me in times of laughter and tears. A special someone that always supports me in every decision that i make and the one who thought me how to act and live as a man. Someone who pulled me up from the grave of childhood and molded me into someone that will act as a mature one and will do the right thing to do. One event that i've remembered with her that will be one of our greatest days together is when me and the rest of my crew competed in our school's dance festival. She's there for me and gave me strength and confidence as she cheers for me as we danced on the dancefloor. Some of my friends called her a "stage girlfriend" because she was there to help me fix myself before the competition. She's my private nurse because she's always there to take care of me in times when i feel bad, like what happened after our performance. I felt severe muscle pains and i can't lift myself up. She went there to comfort me and that made me feel relaxed till the pains ran out. She's the second person who made a big impact and influenced my life. Maybe if i ddnt met her before, i won't be the Jhemz that the people are seeng right now.

Third to my list, but not the least, is my thesis groupmates, we call ourselves "Elite Hooliganz" and the word that i wrote that best describes them is "Brotherhood". They made an impact and influenced me a lot in my studies and also to my personal life. After long long years of study in college where i met many kinds of people, they're the ones who made me feel that "we're one family". As what i've posted before in my facebook wall, i found a family thru them. My brothers including their significant others, and my girlfriend with me forms a family. A family that will protect each other thru endeavors that they face. A family that will lend a hand when someone is in need of help with no questions asked. A family that will stand our grounds and shout with our hands raised "E-What?! ELITE!!!" A family that made me believe in my capabilities, made me believe i can do things. Eight individuals with different unique personalities merged together for one aim, that is to do everything we can to bring ourselves up to the stage and get our diplomas. Cheers to you my dear brothers. Stand your ground.

There are a lot of people who influenced my life but as what the instruction in the activity said, just 3. I didn't included God in the list because He's the center of my life, the center of my actions and all things that i achieved thru my life, i achieved it because He's always around. To my mom, Jane, to my girlfriend EC, and to my brothers mark,franz,alain,mckein,elmer,george,joshua, a million thanks to you for influencing my life and molding me to someone that you can be proud of.

Now i realized why my eyes pulled me back to my seat. Its because my eyes don't want my tears to fall in front of many people because of my emotions. Well i end up here. Although this post is quite long, i hope readers will read it to the end of the line of this post. I point out here... bounce.

-jhemzec05iloveyouforever-

hopes and dreams

its already past 1 AM but im here still awake in front of my laptop doing this entry.. hmmm i can't sleep even though i got less sleep these past few days because we're working on with our IT project the whole night until the sun rises up of the following day... Just got an idea from one blog that i've read recently... its still a long way to run for me... I will see new things and meet new faces as i step up to a new world that ill be dealing with after I went down to the stage with my diploma in my hand walking towards my family giving them my reward for them for years of hardwork they've done for me to reach the peak of my dreams... and beside them is my special someone that gave me inspiration to work hard and made me feel that there's someone there that will stay with me no matter what... with a massive hug and kisses from me, i expressed how much i love her more than how much she loves me... from this, i can tell the world... i got promoted brother... promoted to a new life with the people that means so special to me at my back that gave me strength to move and show the world what i've got........................................

in just one click, my mind returned to reality... a reality that is im still sitting in front of my laptop doing this entry... Just dreamed of what can possibly happen 3months from now... 3 months that can pull me up or bring me down... graduation is coming near... but what my instructor said,,, "graduation is near yet so far"... hmmm IT project's blocking our way... konting tiis n lng... kaya nmen to... ill be marching my way up to the stage to get my diploma and shout to the whole crowd "graduate na ako!"..

someone in front of me...

the internet connection's running slow... slower than expected... I'm just sitting here in front of my laptop in a coffee shop where we used to go to have some coffee and surf the net and sometimes just chatting with my company. While writing this, my head's tilted up high to the ceiling while typing (skills... hehehe).. While typing, in front of me is someone who is also sitting in front of a laptop and doing some web surfing, someone who made me smile for three months that we're together... hehehe... :D right now im looking at her while writing this... hehehe... someone who made me inspired today to work on this entry despite of having a slow internet connection... hehehe... :D someone with a unique smile from which you can say that she's happy right now... someone who gave me a reason to stand up from my bed after a short sleep because of our IT project that we made overnight... I just want to stare at her face the whole time im writing this... i dont want to look on my keyboard and i dont care if im typing the right words or not... What i'm writing right now may sound nonsense to the readers but for me its not... hehehe... pake nyo e blog ko to... hahah just kidding... anyway... she don't have an idea that im writing this blog while looking at her... maybe one of these days she'll be reading this and maybe my other entries... wala akong maxadong magawa kze nga ang bagal ng net dito... heheheh kaya un... ahay napatagalog tuloy ako hahaa... wla to c kj dinaldal pa ako... nagtanong sa cafeworld... muntik q pa nalagay ung mga cnasabi nya... hahaha... i think i need to point out here... ang kulit na ng mga kasama ko eh... hehehe... mmya ulet...

condom

i'll be sure that once you read the title, you will smile. Dirty mind. After reading this you'll understand why i put that as the title. Actually there's a relevance.

In our daily lives, there are people that we trust a lot. Bestfriends, significant others, friends, anybody. We share them stories of our experiences because we trust them that they will keep it for them only and not to disseminate it to the world. But if trust is broken down into pieces because of something done that is not that pleasing to someone, it is so hard to gather and bring it back again. Maybe trust can be brought back after the damage done, but it is not that solid compared before. There is one effective way to keep the trust alive, simply "Be true all the time and don't lie". How bout in bringing back the trust that is once damaged? simply, just show them that you can still be trusted. How? Learn from mistakes you have done before. One quote in my inbox says like this:

"trust is a better compliment than 'iloveyou' coz you may not always trust the one you love, but believe me, you can love the person you trust for the rest of your life"

now going back to the condom stuff... how is it related to trust.. First, there is a brand of condom with a name "Trust"(hehehe) ... Second, now I realized why condoms that are elastic but it is so hard to break. Once the condom was broken during intercourse, unexpected consequences will follow. Got the point..

-jhezec05

miles away

I'm stuck here inside my room for this day. I'm just sitting in front of my computer doing random stuffs in the Web while having a sip o a cup of coffee besides me. Facebooking, chatting with friends, reading something in the internet, exploring oDesk(kewl), blogging, watching videos, listening to music, and anything that opens in my browser. Some say that this kind of life is kinda boring but for me its not. It feels good to be on my room doing things that i usually do when there's no reason to move and go out. Maybe others will say that I'm just emotional by this moment I'm doing these entry. But it's not. There's no reason to be an emo right now, and that kind of lifestyle don't have a room in me anymore. I'm just missing my other half who is miles away from me right now and I don't see any reason for going out today because of that. I'm just enjoying every minute of me today with my laptop and a cup of coffee, 'coz i know she's also happy with her family and spending time with them after a long time that they're apart from each other. I'll just wait for the time that we'll see each other again and give her my warm hug and made my presence and love be felt by her.

As what other's are saying in Tagalog, "nakakatamad ang walang ginagawa", which is right for me. And what my friend told me a while ago, "ang boring ng lifestyle mu ngaun" made me say something like this.. "It may sounds boring for you, but I'm enjoying every moment of it.. *wink*". Point out here... Still craving for cup"s" of coffee... hehehehe

-jhezec05-

coffee experience

its been a long time since the last time i visited my blogger account... i went to a state where i adjusted myself from the new world that i entered months ago. A world that is a lot different from what i have before... Somewhere along the line where i found happiness in life since the day that i met this lady.. Someone who told me that life's easy and we must enjoy it... honestly it was difficult for me at first to adjust... but as the time goes by when we are together, sharing stories and laughters with a cup of coffee, she made me feel somehow that i belong to the world where she's standing. As we go on with our lives together, she lifted me up to the next level of my existence and i enjoyed every single minute of my life with her. During these times, all my sad faces and depression states are changed into a face full of smiles and hopes that tomorrow when my eyes open from a long sleep, i will see something that will made me smile and bear that for the whole day... Someone who told me many things in life that i never encountered way back before. Someone who taught me a lot of things... Someone taught me and made me feel what "true love" is...

We may have a lot of differences but it doesnt matter with me right now.. What matters most is that we can live life together with these differences.. It may be difficult but believe me, it's possible... What makes it possible? the answer is simple.. It a 4-letter word that every person lives with... Its "LOVE"...

out for now... missing her... -05-