traces of my pain...

I don't want to think about it... but it keeps on bothering me... since the last time that was happened... i keep myself busy working on things so that i can get rid of these negativities... but still in the end of the day, inside my four corners... it still bothers me... i just hide the pain that i'm feeling last night behind my smiles... so this will not be a reason for us to quarrel... my friend told me i'm jealous... well in fact she's right... not on being selfish... but i hate seeing her doing those things... mostly if she did it "in front" of me, not considering what will i feel... to tell you honestly guyz... i wnt 2 cry this thing out but my tears won't fall from my naked eyes... i always think about her... on what she really feel on me... i can't open these things up to her when we're together because of my fear of that will cause another misunderstanding between the two of us... She will think that i'm thinking negatively again, and i know she was pissed off of that attitude of mine. i always keep on asking myself "what can i do to make her feel happy with me... to make her feel that i'm one hundred percent hers"... I miss those times that we're happy together sharing smiles everytime we're together... i know i've changed... as what she told me...i can't approach her unlike before.... i changed for one reason... i'm so afraid of losing her and see her in the arms of another... that's why i act that way... acting like a stupid guy staying in one corner quietly...
a stupid guy that can't live his life without her by his side...


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