they say, when ur in love with someone, you can do all stupid things that you can do. But it comes to my mind that it is true, but the question is, will these acts will make the one you love happy? i guess not. Stupid acts may lead on losing someone you love. The only remedy is change. But when will you change? if he/she's gone?
I do stupid stuffs because it is my only way to release all the negative vibrations life is giving me in my everyday living. But because of it, maybe i'm going to lose the one who let me smile in the times that i'm down.. When i'm under the influence of my freaking emotions, she's the only one who can make me smile. I'm always saying these words to her "Ang gling mu talaga magpangiti ng tao, napapangiti mu aq". But yet, i'm still doing these acts to relieve myself from pain. I realized this night that my image is not that suitable for her. I mean, my acts will not let her happy and enjoy my company. Darn, i wasn't able to make her smile, as i told my self before. I told myself that i'll make her happy and comfortable with me when we're together. I need to fix things up with my identity, hoping that this one will help to bring up my identity that will be loved by all, not like now that i'm hated by most people. My friend told me that i must control my emotions and not let it overcome me. That made me realize that my friend's ryt. Dapat wag aq magpapatalo sa emosyon... Kze it will not do good but instead may damage my relationship with my friends and to the one that i love. I know readers will not believe on what i'm going to say. I'll do my best to fix things up and move the way up with a new identity, an identity that will be loved by the people around me.
For you.. I know you're mad at me.. I'm having an idea about the reason.. I can't promise but i will do my best to change myself to save what we have started... I'm afraid to lose you.. I dnt want you to go away from me because of my attitude and stupid acts.. Uunti untiin q... Mhrap mbilis eh... Bka icpn mu nagpapaimpress lng aq sau... Oh well its been a night then... good night guyz...
=Payne=
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